HELP!!....Who Am I?

Yeah! I asked myself that same question these last few weeks, especially with my birthday just passing by on the 21^st of this month.  A deep empty feeling just clouded my mind and body. It was a crazy feeling; I was torn between passion and survival.  

“Am I going to follow my passion of growing Divas Defined and helping a lot of women round the world to love themselves irrespective of their past experiences or I am going to bend over to the pressure of financial survival”……. I kept asking myself

“But how will I survive if I don’t make money”…. I would ask myself over and over again.

There were so many questions yet no answer. Then I came to a conclusion,

I asked myself...” what will I feel fulfilled doing”? 

And then it hit me, Divas Defined!! Even if I died poor (which is not possible) I would be more than happy that I could help one lady in this world to forgive herself, move past her regrets and grow to love herself relentless of what other people may think, say or feel about her. She would be totally free from the bondage of other people’s opinions.

To those who know me, I have always been seen as the girl who is strong willed, vision driven, strong headed, bold etc but the simple fact is that I am just a young lady who is scared as hell what her life will turn out to be at the end of the story. The only difference is that I am not waiting to see the answer to that question, instead am craving out the answer I desire to have to that question. Life hasn’t really been easy with me; well still I know I am having it easier than some other people on earth though. But not withstanding it’s really been a journey so far. 

When I started writing out my blog (as a means to empower people emotionally especially women) I wanted it to tell real life experiences in the form of stories. Well that went well until I started listening to advises and people started telling me that my articles were too relationship based. I tried to make it more versatile and then I noticed I lost all the comments I used to have. Instead of me going back to my normal way of writing I tried reposting other people's articles. Some articles were cool while others were not just hitting it. Now I should have known that this was the point to go back to sat-to -quo but Nooooooo!!…… instead I kept trying and when I didn’t get there I just stopped writing. 

Funny right but that's what we do to ourselves every day. We are all happy about ourselves until somebody has an opinion that we consider relevant. In a bid to prove wrong or be better we begin to lose our self to a quest we don’t even know the vision. 

Life is short and happiness is what you make it. Do yourself the favour and take time to know yourself. Learn what hurts you, what gives you pleasure, what gets to you and learn the best ways to live with yourself. True!! People will always have an opinion but it doesn’t have to matter to you.

So live today, loving you and being you cause seriously, you only live once…..LIVE LIFE, LOVE LIFE

Regards,

Imoh Iniakpaniko
@imohspeaks